::Avoiding the truth
11:54 p.m. - 2005-07-24
Mom and I fought again yesterday.
I really don't know why she got so upset! I just said she probably forgot to log-out and then dad agreed with me and she started on a "Feartheknown knows everything; she's always right,etc. I, being a smart-aleck, say "If I was always right I wouldn't be almost failing some of my classes!"
I don't think that helped.
She didn't take me to Books-A-Million like she said she would and when she got back home she came into my room, ranting about how from now on I was the boss and how'd she would only listen to me. Then she said if I kept this up she would leave and that's probably what I was trying to do anyways.
That's not true!! Dad and I have both noted several times how she flips out over nothing and how her moods have been lately.
I tried to talk to dad about it and ended up crying because that little voice in my head was going "If she leaves it'll be your fault. It's always your fault. You've seen how bad things always happen around you. Everyone was happier when you weren't around".
Nothing like a little self-love huh?
She was better today though. She said she was sorry for not taking me but she was tired.
.......?
That's it? That's all there is?
Sometimes I wonder if she hates me. She says she loves me but she then trys to blame things on me that everyone knows she did.
I have to bend over backwards to please her and not 'upset her' and she blames everything on me?
Am I stupid for not understanding what I did?
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Moving on
I saw Super Mario Brothers for the first time today!! It was a great movie!! "Sir the goombas are dancing again". They don't make movies like that anymore!!
I got the first two Shojo Beats. I'm so glad I got them! They're awsome so far! I can't wait to read more!! I'll try to get a subscription to it since it'll be cheaper that way.
When I got to SunCoast I noticed they had hentai (cartoon porn) and I wanted to look so I touched the thing and sent the sign crashing to the ground. Mom had to make up a story so the salesperson would leave us alone. Guess I need to control myself better huh? It's not my fault I have to touch everyhing!
Yay!! Matrix got her own site here!! I've known her since middle school and she's the best!! How would I survive the english nazi without you!!?? She hates us man!
Now why was she always behind her desk? *giggles and shudders* Maybe the world was better of without our theories.........
