::Lesson of the day
9:40 p.m. - 2005-11-04
I'm very addicted to Final Fantasy X right now. I get home and and on goes the Playstation II.
I'm denying right now that my addiction has anything to do with that 55 I got on my Biology test. *eyes dart around*
I had fun at Krys's house. She has the most adorable nephew! I swear that baby looked down my shirt and smiled!
I got to hold him a few times. It was so cool when he stop crying just because I held him. It made me feel special.
And to my credit I only 'ewwed' a few times when he started to drool!
That's an improvment yet!
I got a costume for $5 at Wal-Mart. I loved the Marilyn Monroe dress! I wish the material was better though. I would have worn it to school, if it didn't tear Saturday.
Krys put too much make-up on me. I ended up looking....cheap *coughcough* so I took some off. I think it might have bothered her, but I was just trying to look more like the person I was being. Besides Halloween or not, make-up like that just isn't me.
I got so sick on Saturday night and Sunday. I ate this really hot (Cabenero) pepper. That taught me to never drink milk to help the burning. It does stop for a little bit, but it really messes up your stomach!
The sickness had nothing to do with the candy either. It's never the candy. *nods head wisely*
I passed my first Driver's Ed test. It was really easy too! All it was, was a lot of facts that didn't have much to do with actual driving.
Mom let me try driving when we were in our trailer park. I'd never driven before so I was really freaked out!
For good reason too. I put us into the ditch! It's pretty funny now but I wasn't laughing at the time. Everyone else did that for me!
Mom spent most of the time telling me to get my foot of the brake. That and to get out of the middle of the road. It's not my fault the car wasn't responding to me!
All I have to say is: Stay out of the road! Don't even walk beside it! It's not safe with me around!
I don't think I have to tell anyone twice!
I ended up going trick-or-treating with Mom. I was kinda forced along but it wasn't so bad.
We got tons of candy! Not many people were out so some people let you take as much candy as you wanted!
I was right! My friend Amanda does like Spleen! Thet're even going out now!
She's so posessive over him! We can't joke or fool around anymore like we used to. I don't mind him having a g/f but I don't want to lose a friend just because she can't let go of him for a few seconds!
My sometimes bus driver is crazy! He went around a corner sharply and since I was half-asleep and couldn't catch myself I ended up falling on the girl sitting with me. I apoiligzed and she just laughed and said it was ok.
Some people at school think I'm gay/bi. I guess I can understand how they think that. I'm always joking with my friends (the wife thing, etc) but I never thought that people really believed me.
I'm a little put out by it though.
Am I really that unattractive to guys?
Pippi (Yet another friend since middle school) has something on her brain. They don't know what it is yet so she has to get another MRI next week.
I'm worried about her! She's only 17 and her body is already trying to shut down.
Part of the worry is selfish, I'll admit that. She is only a year older than me and that just makes me realize my own motality. No one wants to think about that...
The lesson of the day is: Smile. As long as you smile no one questions anything. You're world can be falling apart but no one will notice as long as you seem happy.
Matrix rememeber? I said it was nice to see you smiling and not crying. I never said you were happy. There's a big difference huh?
Is it that people don't care enough to look past the layers or is it that they really can't see?
Does that make us bad people or friends?
I usually give people what they want to see. If I don't smile they ask what's wrong. That doesn't bother me (although conatantly asking does). What bothers me is whne I deny anything is wrong and they say they know me better than that.
If they know me that well, then they should know to leave me alone. I'll come to them in my own time if I feel that I need to.
Sometimes the problem is, is that I can't go to them. If I were to tell Anna-May or Sweets the whole group would know pretty soon.
That's not what I want you know? If I wanted everyone to know, I'd tell everyone.
Trust people trust.
Trust me when I smile and tell you everything thing is all right and maybe I'll trust you with a real smile.
